Tuesday, July 31, 2018

295 Blog Post- Autumn Love


When we discussed Autumn by Ali Smith, one of the things we spent a decent amount of time talking about was the relationship between Daniel and Elisabeth, and therefore also between Elisabeth and her mother and how Wendy seemed to fit into the story herself. It seemed to be somewhat popular opinion that Daniel and Elisabeth’s relationship was, if not weird, then at least unhealthy to the extent that it grew to in Elisabeth’s later years. Of course, this makes sense and any mother, like Wendy, would be concerned for their daughter, and of course it wasn’t in Elisabeth’s best interest to continue in this relationship that she was using as a crutch to avoid real, and promising romantic relationships.
            That being said, I would like to play devil’s advocate for a little while and explore the other side of the coin. If you look at it from a different perspective, what Daniel and Elisabeth share is what everyone searches for, it’s even referred to in the book, “The lifelong friends, he said. We sometimes wait a lifetime for them” (52). I know that this friendship morphs into a romantic attachment in Elisabeth’s mind, but that happens as a result of their friendship, a friendship which never goes away even as things, time, they all change. The age distance and the fact that Daniel has no romantic interest in Elisabeth of course muddy the waters a bit, but it’s not always necessary for your feelings to be reciprocated in order to validate them. Elisabeth may very well be using her feelings for Daniel as a shield to stave off ever having to enter into an adult relationship with someone her own age, with bigger stakes, but she also might just genuinely love Daniel (whatever kind of love that is) and feel uninterested in getting to know anyone who doesn’t make her feel just as strongly which is also completely valid and plausible. There are so many different kinds of love, and Elisabeth and Daniel most assuredly feel some kind of it for each other, and feeling love for anyone in any form can make lesser feelings with lesser people who you have a lesser connection with disappointing and unexciting.
            I think one of the most touching lines in the book is about falling in love with the way someone sees the world. That’s the love that Daniel and Elisabeth share, despite the confusion, the miscommunication, the age gap and every other reason to come up with for why they are inappropriate or unhealthy. Daniel fell in love with Elisabeth’s curiosity and open, innocent spirit, while Elisabeth fell in love with Daniel because of his whimsical, and creative approach that makes anything and everything feel understandable, and his endless fountain of information that never runs dry or dull. They form this deep connection of mind and soul rather than brain and body that truly stands the test of time. It has to be one of the most innocent kinds of love: to simply want to absorb someone’s outlook and be around them because the world can be a different place when you’re together. Here lies the fundamental misunderstanding with Wendy when she forbids Elisabeth to see Daniel, and when she thinks it’s weird that they enjoy spending time together. Elisabeth’s mother is a fairly complex character, but she’s also one who is pretty much stuck in who she is and what she believes, and once she believes that Elisabeth and Daniel have an inappropriate relationship it becomes impossible to make her see otherwise.
            The most difficult part of their relationship to defend is Elisabeth’s undying devotion to Daniel while he is literally dying. Not that her loyalty and concern isn’t heartwarming in a sense, but she takes it to such great lengths it becomes almost verging on the unsettling if seen through a different lens. Elisabeth’s attachment is one of those in which context is a big part of whether or not it’s time to call the police. If Daniel, for instance, did not reciprocate any feelings for her whatsoever, her decision to impersonate his granddaughter in the hospital, and make decisions on his behalf would be something people definitely go to jail for. But it’s not creepy because Daniel loves her too, and he’s connected to her too, and even though he doesn’t talk about it and she doesn’t really show up in his thoughts, she is the person he asks for, and she is the person he’s happy to see during the few brief moments of consciousness and clarity he has left. So in this perspective, it’s actually not really fair to say their relationship is one-sided, or unhealthy, or inappropriate because for whatever it is, it’s an enduring lifelong love and friendship, and putting everything else aside, that’s what everyone searches sometimes their whole lives for, and few are lucky enough to find, so shouldn’t anyone hold on to something like that if they do find regardless of what form it takes?

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